Falling off..

What no one tells you is that you'll need to question your motivations for loosing weight.
Looking deep within the part of yourself that remains hidden from other people. An it was there I found that what I truly wanted in my the depth of my self was to love me whole and tender. Even if it meant having some chicken tenders along the way.

Why does that matter? Well I now know when to say when. I notice how eating that whole pint of ice cream is not going to go so well in the morning. I am learning to say no when I want to binge eat through an emotion or when I purge eat things. I try now to find the root of the emotion and work out the problem. Along with questioning why would said food help said state of mind. Now do I still need to loose weight? Yes! Why, cause I need to be here for another sets of decades. Though it also means getting past the idea that loosing weight equals some form of thinness. That it is somehow the holy grail of form.

Now that I have fallen off the motivation bike, I can pick it up and go for it again. Though this would also mean changing the meals we eat. That is another post all together.